currently at home
selamat hari raya!curently having raya break..
went shpping for raya yesterday...
bought lots of clothes..haha
suppose to study..
but damn hot n boring at home..
gonna die ald..
exam coming so soon..
still havent study..
juz found out tat wei is in pb rite now..
not tat i purposely wan check la..
juz talk to ah lean then i know lo...
so no yuan..i in pb so many days also never meet him..
wahaha..
they r together..
glad to hear tat..or else the other gal damn kesian la..
i guess she wont be crying ald la..
cos i m out ald ma..
ah bao,rite??haha
but i m sorry to say tat she is more blind than me..
unless she those gal tat juz wan love as love not as a commiment then i hav nothing to say..
or else..i really need time to believe that there is someone even blind than me..
all my frens saw how i put my effort in..saw how well i treat him..
yet,wat did i get except my own tears?
he can turn his bac on me?wat makes she thinks tat he wont do the same thing?
rite,she can be sure if she is the one tat turn her bac on him first be4 he does..(sigh..is 2 ways)
she is the one tat see wif her own eyes how her bf lie to me..
tell me he loves me every night while he is sleeping wif her everyday..
tell me he is alone while he is with her..
how can she bear all this ignorance?
how can she bear when she cant stand for herself in front of me?
how can she bear when he dun even dare to tell other ppl about her existance??
i still remember when i went to kl for break up..she need to hide when i suddenly pay my visit....
how can she bear all tis?
i shud hav find her out..n ask her to stand for herself n stand wif her braveness to tell me tat she love him n dare to fight for it..
one thing i muz admit..
gals beileve guys too easily..
y she can bear all tis?
one of the possible reason is she believe all of his bull shit reasons n excuses...
another reason will be her blinded love...
i dunno wat she thinks..
but to me..my pride as gal is very strong..
those tat she canbear..i cant..
but doesnt mean she appear to be a better gal than me..
cos i respect my life..
i wont allow anyone to ignore my existance..
i wan to stand for myself no matter wat..
try ask me to hide..u'll juz get bomb by me..
i hav lost my pride since the day i believe him while he lying to me...
i hav lost my pride since the day i believe him blindly wothout following my judgememnt...
i hav made my mistakes..
so i tell myself..i muz live a better life without him..
n i m now telling u guys...
life without him is totally free...
is a nightmare when i think bac..
i wonder how i bear when he always blame me for his own mistakes..
how i bear when i was doing everything he juz took everything from me..
how i bear when he dun even giv a damn of me...
i guess i was juz blind...
i dun hate him or her at all..
i wish them well..
n happy wif their life..
if it happens tat their life r miserable in future..
i m sorry to tell tat i wont care and help..
tis is their choice..
i will juz say this is their consequence of hurting ppl for their own happiness..
i hav served him enough..
i hav pay watever tat i owe him..
tat's it and it ended a month ago..
he is out of my life n dun try to come interfere me...
i wont be as kind hearted ald..
he goes on wif his happy life..
i continue wif mine...
i m happy tis way..
anyways..
time to go..
spend to much time on his bull shit ald..
take care everyone!
posted by puipo @ 3:10 PM
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