Monday, August 22, 2005

...

好久没来了
最近忙些什么呢??
忙着看自己

现在
一切都乱了
全部东西都从新安排
糟糕

还有两个星期就开学了
要为未来的事业而忙了
有点怕
因为不是小孩了
要开始自己走了
恐怖

现在追求自由
不想为感情做什么
是说了从新来过
但未来会怎样走
我这次真的没有计划了
策划了三年多
累了
放过手了
却又回头了
搞不清楚自己在干吗
我想这样走下去
我当然希望好好走下去
等到我能再一次放手的时候
就真的完了
因为年龄不会再允许我在玩玩
这一次
其实是很坚持
想着长痛不如短痛
却因为为一个不可能成为我离开的理由
而回头了
我真的不要因为那个理由而离开
我真的接受不了

虽然回头了
我还是不知道该做些什么
就这样了
我的脑不想想了

Friday, August 12, 2005

就差那么一点

啊。。
就差那么一点
我就光头了

是的
昨天想去剃光头
我是那么坚定
却被妈妈的黑脸打败了

原本还以为可以圆了我一个愿望
想了好久的

没什么特别原因
就想看看自己没头发的样子
换言之
想换一个光头的发型
可惜
被妈妈打败了
原本爸爸都没反对的
但后来给我妈妈讲
他就说剪短就好了
唉。。

我可是一生人都没光头过的哦。。
就连刚出世也没剃过头的


所以呢
现在我一头短发咯
不是很喜欢
但是头发会长的
不用担心

“我已剪短我的发剪断了牵挂
剪一地不被爱的分岔
长长短短短短长长
一寸一寸在挣扎
我已剪短我的发剪断了惩罚
剪一地伤透我的尴尬
反反覆覆清清楚楚
一刀两断你的情话你的谎话”

突然想起这首歌
梁咏琪的短发
但我的短发一点也没这样的意思
哈哈

现在的我
又变丑小鸭了
但我想如果真的光头的话
那就是天下最丑的女人了
哈哈

其实
相从心生

Thursday, August 11, 2005

mama..i love u..

i got this from friendster buletin,

Your MUM,
When you were 1 year old,
she
fed you
and bathed
you. You thanked her by crying all night
long.

When you were 2 years old, she taught
you to
walk. You thanked her by running away
when she
called.

When you were 3 years old, she made all
your
meals with love. You thanked her by
tossing your
plate on the floor.

When you were 4 years old, she gave you
some
crayons. You thanked her by coloring the
dining
room table.

When you were 5 years old, she dressed
you for
the holidays. You thanked her by
plopping into the
nearest pile of mud.

When you were 6 years old, she walked
you to
school. You thanked her by
screaming, "I'M NOT
GOING!"

When you were 7 years old, she bought
you a
baseball. You thanked her by throwing it
through
the next-door-neighbor's window.

When you were 8 years old, she handed
you an
ice cream. You thanked her by dripping it
all over
your lap.

When you were 9 years old, she paid for
piano
lessons. You thanked her by never even
bothering
to practice.

When you were 10 years old she drove
you all
day,
from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday
party
after another. You thanked her by
jumping out of
the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old, she took you
and
your friends to the movies. You thanked
her by
asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old, she warned
you not
to watch certain TV shows. You thanked
her by
waiting until she left the house.

When you were 13, she suggested a
haircut that
was becoming. You thanked her by telling
her she
had no taste.

When you were 14, she paid for a month
away at
summer camp. You thanked her by
forgetting to
write a single letter.

When you were 15, she came home from
work,
looking for a hug. You thanked her by
having your
bedroom door locked.

When you were 16, she taught you how to
drive
her
car. You thanked her by taking it every
chance you
could.

When you were 17, she was expecting an
important call. You thanked her by being
on the
phone all night.

When you were 18, she cried at your high
school
graduation. You thanked her by staying
out
partying until dawn.

When you were 19, she paid for your
college
tuition, drove you to campus carried your
bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye
outside the
dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in
front of
your friends.

When you were 20, she asked whether
you were
seeing anyone. You thanked her by
saying, "It's
none of your business."

When you were 21, she suggested certain
careers
for your future. You thanked her by
saying, "I don't
want to be like you."

When you were 22, she hugged you at
your
college graduation. You thanked her by
asking
whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.

When you were 23, she gave you furniture
for your
first apartment. You thanked her by telling
your
friends it was ugly.

When you were 24, she met your fiance
and asked
about your plans for the future. You
thanked her by
glaring and growling, "Muuhh-ther,
please!"

When you were 25, she helped to pay for
your
wedding, and she cried and told you how
deeply
she loved you. You thanked her by
moving halfway
across the country.

When you were 30, she called with some
advice
on
the baby. You thanked her by telling
her, "Things
are different now."

When you were 40, she called to remind
you of a
relative's birthday. You thanked her by
saying you
were "really busy right now."

When you were 50, she fell ill and
needed you to
take care of her. You thanked her by
reading about
the burden parents become to their
children.

And then, one day, she quietly died. And
everything you never did came crashing
down like
thunder on YOUR HEART

gosh..
it sounds really bad..
however..
according to mum..
i m not like tat..
when i was one year old,
i m super duper cute..
walking here n there..
then when i was 4,5..years old..
i always follow my parents to watever function..
i always ask for permission to walk away from them..
juz to be a kepo ..
according to my mum..
i seldom cry..or make noise..
i never draw on the dining table also..
i can only remember i drew on one of my barbie doll..
as her make-up :X
never really did things tat my mum dont like..
i think i m the most "guai" girl among my friends..
i juz dont like to make my parents unhappy..
got pros n cons loh..

anyways..
hopefully all of u out there r not the like the person in the message..
it's quite bad..

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

sigh..

心情怎么会那么低啊?
怎么搞的。。
在想什么呢?
sigh...

昨晚没睡好
可以说没睡到
早点睡应该会好点吧

sigh...
没心情还真不好受

发现

读得越多
就越明白自己的心
就越明白他的理性

好多东西是我必须学的
我的不足
我现在看到了
他果然看得太清楚了

我希望我会学会
不为他
为自己

自爱

我终于都明白自爱有多么的重要
我好想为我听到的事情哭泣
但是,
我没有理由为因果而哭泣

自己中下的因
果当然是自己受的
没有人能代替
更不能帮上什么忙

每个人
做什么事都必须想得很清楚
不能因为自己的伤心,难过,沮丧,冲动,欲望而做决定
尤其是女人
时时刻刻都要清楚知道自己在做什么
要完全明白做每一件事所要付出的代价
后悔,自责
是根本没有用的

一个打老婆,打一个一岁不到的孩子的老公
要来干什么??
有什么理由要留下来呢?
也许说为了孩子
但是世界上还有很多很出色的单亲妈妈啊

也许
我讲真的很容易
但我还是认为
只要找出那份勇气
没有事情是做不到的

自爱很重要
如果连自己都不爱自己
有多少人爱你也是假的,没有用的

我只能祝福她
希望她找到自己
找到让自己活下去的勇气

现在的我
真的觉得读高一点
能做一份养得起自己的工
是很好的
至少这样不用担心什么
因为这样的独立
是没有人能抢走的

今天的感触
很大很大
我多想跟那个要我自爱的人分享
却不能这么做
因为我似乎明白他的意思

自爱很重要
谢谢你提醒我
我今天终于明白了
不敢说我开悟了
但至少我明白了
谢谢

Sunday, August 07, 2005

i m totally tan!!

i m really really tan now...
i'm like from totally fair to so tan...
should see my skin colour man..
jess would be very happy i think..if she sees me..
cos i m on the track(being tan)
haha...
but..i didnt do it on purpose la..
i didnt wear bikini also..
i just went to the beach for a walk..
my skin is really pain now...
ouch...!!!

anyway...
made my decision liao..
a bit lost now..cos i dunno wat to feel...
n dunno wat to do yet..for mine remaining life..
i now i need to study n do those compulsory stuff...
however..still got things to think about..

I WILL BE FINE..
PLS BE STRONG FOR MYSELF!!

good ones..

Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

1. I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

2. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

3. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

4. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

5. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

6. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

7. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

8. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

9. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

10. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

11. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

12. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

13. REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

14. True friends: How many people actually have 8 true friends?

15. Hardly anyone I know ! But some of us have all right friends and good friends!!!

*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*

Being happy is the priority of living,
If u wanna be sad,
Be sad 4 something thats worth it.

Life has its ups and downs.
Sometimes the sun shines,
Sometimes the rain pours.
But dont forget, it takes both sun and rain to make a rainbow.

got tis from ah bao's blog..

Saturday, August 06, 2005

傻瓜

我刚刚从梦中醒来
冲了凉。。醒了。。

梦里的童话
真的让我好温暖
好舒服
希望一切都会这样下去
其他的,我都不想想了。。
突然,
铃声响起
很不幸的。。我醒了。。

现在想想刚发过的梦
在梦里
我是世界上最傻的傻瓜
我哭了
因为我看见了自己是有多么的傻

傻瓜就是我

Monday, August 01, 2005

哈哈

哈哈
今天是我人生中
第一次给我妈帮我绑马尾
看了比较像鸡尾
哈哈
我妈可说什么都会。。
就是绑头发不行
小时候我都是自己绑头发的
加上我很少留长发。。
她就不用烦我的头发了
我的头真的超好笑
但还是很开心
我妈可以为我绑头发!!

hot hot plus hot..

it's so hot today...
i dont even feel like going out becos of tat...
but i no where to go also la..
hehe..

had a great shopping wif ah wei yesterday..
buying stuff for school use..
great day..cos no quarrel at all...
so quite happy lo..

anyways..
is so hot!!!!